The Wonderful Life of The Drew

Monday, February 28th, 2005

8:49 am - Doors to be Opened

entry is too long... so now it's gone =)... current mood: The best EVAH! current music: "He lives in you"
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Tuesday, January 25th, 2005

3:33 pm - Take me away.

Well I feel like putting aside all thats annoying me right now and look to the positive side of things. My journal has been kinda like that.

My dad wanted to know what my livejournal name was one day, and I thinks to meself, "hmmmm self, the smart me say no, and the other side... still say no." Sorry dad but no. He was smiling all innocently and I though maybe he really did want to know about it. Then he asked a different question; if my friends had any what they would be... okay first you weren't suspicious on snooping, now you are. I gave him a solid but sincere "No." I told him that if he really wanted to see what a live journal looks like I could make one for him; he stopped asking questions shortly after.

Trying to not procrastinate, it has been its worst in this month than what I have ever had before school wise. It has gotten really bad and now I am trying to pull the threads together to mend some severe wounds. Which... in a way... I am procrastinating doing my American History outline by typing on my LJ... damn me... I'm soo smart to trick myself without even knowing it...

Tommorow is my big debate with Janaya and I am not looking forward to it. I think that it really doesn't matter how I do, its not that big a deal, but I feel like it is somehow. Its like all these others have written this really proffessional essay and I somehow feel leftout in my opinionated one. Like at the beggining of the year my teacher Mr. Francis thought I was an idiot or something as I just could not answer some of the questions correctly, but when I did they were way off. I don't want that feeling to come back...

Had fun with Nikki on Friday, its good to have days where you do nothing and all feels cool and just right. Watching Earthsea was pretty funny actually, its more fun and easier to laugh about stupid things when there is somebody else to laugh with.
Went out with Jill and Christie on Saturday, just missing Finding Neverland. We did however veer over to that super Wal-Mart and had a lot of fun looking inside. We even got minature Uno cards to play with. The boxes were so tiny we didn't know how we'd play. So we went back to my truck to break them in, it turns out that the small box had two decks, so twice the smallness. These kinda breaks are what I need.

I must have super-senses now because of some defect as some people who didn't annoy me before I want to shove in a garbage disposal, or feed them to the Jill. After a while more people seem to open up, its better to suffer and be tired together as a Junior class than alone in a corner.

current mood:

cheerful
current music: "Living a Lie" 4-Strings

Sunday, January 23rd, 2005

12:21 am - Two sane people have less fun than an odd one with imaginary friends

Senoiritis...

One word describes it all, now mind you that I may only be a Junior but this is what I feel, I have this, no motivation, compulsion, need, or desire. Too much going on right now (dont take that lightly when i say it) meaning not only homework I have but a full show, three major college clubs (and about 200 hrs of community hoobla to go with that) lessons, freeme time, and much more that should've not occured.

OH RANDOM THOUGHT. Lauren takes outdoor showers with crazy Beaners looking at her every morning END RANDOM THOUGHT

I have been getting worse and worse at handling tense situations with my parents. losing control of temper quite frequently as their meaningless punishments and angers aggrivate me the most. It is one thing to have a parent get mad at you for say not doing laundry. But this was the case today; father figure asks to pick up the kit and living room for mother... asks again when bro does not put his laundry away... finally screams at all of us when he sees us on the couch, seems reasonable, so far. He looks over the kitched and two things were askew, a glass is sitting out and a magazine is ruffled..... %#%$#@%#^%$##@$U& would you get pissed off is something so dumb happened... no... but he goes livid complaining that we are nothing but a bunch of lazy dumbasses... 18 my friend.... thats the magic number when you see me no more.

Going back to Satan's Hell.... i mean school on monday.... looking forward to debate with Janay... now I just need to go rewrite my essay.... your going down

Tuesday, January 11th, 2005

9:57 pm - When leaves fall...

For those who are interested in the normally witty, enticing, and comedic entries that I write... this is not one of them, not bad, but somber, yeah, somber, that best describes it. So to convince how I really feel I think it best to write all my feelings and problems in a way that would not be so nagging and draining... for those interested read on, look for my meaning.

When leaves fall... I will be in my happy place,
few can come here, I keep it for myself.
Those who dwell on the outside can gaze in their reflected mirrors of doubt and paranoia,
a fasination I would not bother to give time to.

When rain heals... the days will darken,
but my spirits lift as clouds can be dim, but it washes the soul clean,
For now it is better to be in the rain in times so shortly,
To think of what you may be when all is through,
they do,
you too,
But not all stand in the rain at once, and it is for one person alone to share to cold.
And when one feels alone the one ray of light, the love of their life, and the fire of their being,
does not come, does not see or hear them,

a person is so very alone, it may be to frightened to call,
will the light come, or will it flee behind dark clouds.

When threads tighten... the very sanity of the soul condeses and draws away,
as threads begin to unwind and undo, they do so in the same hour,
the soul does not know which one to cut, for fear of breaking their core...

If I had more to say, I would keep it to myself... these are words from me being stressed out over time... I just wish it would all come to a close... but I have my friends, and they are there... Sorry I have not posted for so long, parents took away all computors adn this really is the only line of communication for me to some of my friends... so bear with me...

current mood:

uncomfortable
current music: *May it Be*

Friday, December 10th, 2004

8:33 pm

So here I am, relaxing in the comforts of my cheap office chair, happy to be back from work. Paradise Bakery was a hard place to adapt to, so many things to learn and know, I will compare to that of walmart or some convenience store to give you a picture. Employees, unfortunate enough to work at walmart, usually have one chore or two to do throughout the day such as; stocking, cashier, department head, fitting rooms, etc... A mindless task that is repeated throughout the day. My assumption was that Paradise Bakery would be similar, I would only get cookies, or be on the cash register, or work on coffee; but Paradise bakery really is something more. One job, the job you have, must be able to run each and every single function in the restaurant, not just one or two tasks a day mind you, but doing all jobs at once such as, stocking for customers, checking to see new customers, refilling supplies at islands and coffee stations, KNOWING where to get the supplies in the first place, checking to see if people are coming, restocking cookies and cleaning up coffee machine, working on toast for some couple who is almost at the end of the line and are getting cranky, are customers coming in yet, now they want a latte, a dozen cookies, a bowl of soup, a ceasar salad, no tomato, iceburg lettuce, extra olive seasoning, more customers are coming in better hurry up, then the cash register malfunctions gotta go away and find the manager to fix it, line is filling up, people are impatient, coffee maching exploding, people on salads make the wrong one... gets kinda tiring doesn't it.

I am however learning to cope with this... jobs are great though for meeting new people, the managers of a company are only looking for a certain personality in employees to begin with, so what do you get when you put a bunch of similar people together and help one another? FREINDS!? Yes even right off they tried to get me involved in everything and thats been great. Things are definently looking up and I love my job, my co-workers, and my managers, not to mention my checks.

People today in school were dead. *note* "people today in school were dead" was not a metaphor, they lay streched out on their desks and were dead, just like I was, an exhausting end to and exhausting week. High-School at GIlbert has lost its energy, not just this year however. When last year ended people just left, no "WOHOO No School Soon" spirit... they were just, dead. They left and knew they would return, and thats how it is now and is getting sadder by the minute. I am trying to do too many things at once right now but I will multi-task or so help me... I'll die too, then you can come to my funeral and bring HUBERT CUMBERDALE, or MARGERY STUART BAXTER.

OH CRAP ITS 8:47 I TOTTALLY FORGOT ABOUT NICOLE'S B-DAY PARTY *runs off*

Sunday, November 28th, 2004

7:15 pm - Craziness... the saga....

This has been one crazy Thanksgiving weekend. It seemed so long to me (thanks in part to work) that going back tommorow is going to suck, since I don't have any homework right now you could see why I hate having to go back to school. cus that means having homework IT NEVER ENDS!

This weekend however (scratch working at the Paradise Bakery) has been really fun, due in part to Jill getting her CD player jacked... WE COULD GO OUT AND DO COOL STUFF... which was awesome.

Nicole went out with some friends last night, thats awesome... but I wonder when (hopefully in the next month or so) we can get everyone to all go and see Alexander.

We went to Uno's last night in downtown ASU (with Christie and Jiill) and it was cold... but FUN. We kept trying to find clues to the bridge, you see we went by the water and on each post there was some wierd poem about the fish and the lake... we couldn't figure it out until we saw this one poem that was like "we come out and dance with accordian" and I was like... "hmm... accoor-di-anne fish" but it wasn't until Jill randomly said "you know cactuses absorb water like an accoordian"... we laughed at that at first but then after we pieced the puzzles together we discovered that In the lake dwells the monster SAGUARO MAN!!! ... by the way get no ideas anyone he's Christie's new boyfriend.... GO SAGUARO MAN!!

Good times... so glad Jill to see Jill and Christie
Hope Nicole gets off work soon (seems like whenever I call she's not there) maybe I'l make a visit to Target LOL

See you all soon
es all
GO SAGUARO MAN

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Sunday, November 21st, 2004

11:11 pm

Well if Nicole is going to post... SO WILL I!

OMFG (as she put it) I got a freakin' job!!! Wooohooo... (trust me the euphoria will die off as soon as I work and miss time with friends but for now) WOOOOHOOOOO... I'm working at Paradise Bakery by Pei Wei and the People there rock... I went to an employee meeting today (after my orientation Friday) and I had to clock in. They were awesome at the meeting... they were like "you guys want some soda and some cookies and some pizza and some bread and some whatever they had..." can you say all you can eat buffet. Everyday they give away all extra food to employees... everyone there is awesome.

I meet the head manager and OMF she is HILARIOUS... you see, she has this StuTTeR... so to avoid it she talks Really Rlly fst, to the point were you can't understand her. and when she pauses in the middle of thought to say something it will be like thts the end f tht annnnn nnn nnnnn duh so anywy.... nad continues on as if the studder never happened... kinda sad... BUT FREAKIN COOL...

they are so nice to me... even the creator of Paradise Bakery visits our store every now and then. And the nice thing about it is... I GOT PAID FOR THE ORIENTATION AND THE MEETING. When I clocked out of the meeting it said I had worked two and a half hours WOOT FOR MY FIRST CHECK! I get 6.50 an hour which is great for a person who has no job experience

Nicole can over Friday for our Parentals Euchre training.... tis nice to have her over all time... you know what... she should just STAY...

I must admit I am having Christie and Jill withdrawls and hopes to see them soon... but not to see "white noise" or something.... just on fun occasions

Quote of the day: (The Grudge) "ughhhhhhhhhhhhhckhhhhhhhh" LOL

current mood:

devious

Saturday, November 13th, 2004

6:36 pm - 'Easy Mac for God'...

OMG I haven't posted in a while. There is a lot to talk about but I will cut it short in a brief summary of events.

Last week was long, boring, and filled with homework. The only chance I had to go out with friends was on a friday which in itself was short. Jill dragged me and Christie to see "The Grudge" at first I was all like "hell's no" but then the idea quickly warmed up to me. BIG MISTAKE! I am still having problems with it at night. like I freak when I am standing next to my bed when it's dark or my cat comes in the room. Lol it's rather amusing. The only sad part to Friday night was I barely got to see Nicole... I felt kinda bad since it WAS her Birthday.

This week has been boring and friendless as well. Save for Thursday when Bobby Nikki and I watched Lord of the Rings at her house, that was cool, Bobby's cool too. This whole week has been an effort to find a job since this coming thursday is when I am able to get my liscence.

Oh and about that job thing... I GOT ONE!!! WOOT WOOT FOR DREW!!! *does dance* I finally was able to land one at Paradise Bakery by Pei Wei off of Baseline and Val Vista... Oh my god I am soo happy and Becky, the manager, seemed happy bout it too. I have my initiation on Friday and am soo happy I got one, since it is so hard when you are 16, don't drive, and have no past experience. I hope Nikki finds one soon. I only have to pass my liscence test on monday to seal the deal on the job since they require a worker to have a liscene, to drive there, in order to work there so... here's fingers crossed.

Hope too see people soon since it is only a Saturday.

current mood:

rejuvenated

Monday, October 25th, 2004

10:17 pm - A Dating life

Having a little trouble in the Dating life, there are goods and bads

The Goods

I find myself having more conversations with girls that weeks ago would never look at me, maybe its just the brother thing but too many is a coinsidence

Of the three at my school that I think are really hot One talks to me more, one I haven't heard from, and the other I believe has a guy friend (its funny how protective some guys can be, like over-protective like to the point where they can't let go of the other girls hand)

This happened in the Case of Nikki Baccera, her BF is like that and gives me bad looks when ever I talk to her (she is a really close friend so I talk to her anyway), he gets so mad when I do talk to her I love it, it really is funny considering I am not intersted and we had a thing years ago. So I always love to interupt their frequent "smooch sessions". I will pop in right when they are in the middle of it "Hi Nikki" and she looks away totally breaking the lock and getting that wonderfull loathsome grin I like to see, its a daily game I play and its fun try it sometime (its even better when you don't like the other person)... a fun game I like to play

The Bads

I find myself having more conversations with girls, lol, but this has a flipside when i can talk to a girl I am not able to, sometimes it comes out funny, I mean its not like I hit on every girl 24 seven but you wanna sound impressive right...

Girls Don't ever tell a guy that he has a nice shirt unless you are really close... how are they going to respond

A) they are going to feal okward if they can't complement you on something, I mean they could just say "uh... thanks you have a nice one too" and then when you don't stare at the shirt they get all mad that you don't care and when you do stare they think you are perverted.... point taken?

There are those girls that stand on the fence (meaning they don't know what to think of you) and any rumor they hear of you they are going to spread, they are looking for the goods and bads of you but mostly the bads... kinda sucks doesn't it.

Tiffany this really cool girl I like a lot is a lot of fun, but whenever we get a chance to talk Brent always cuts in or someone else she severly flirts with (I you wanna date her DATE HER and don't give her mixed signals I would rather loath you for a good reason than a stupid one)

who knows maybe someone will pop up.

current mood:

indifferent

10:07 pm - Life in the Regionals...

Things are improving much for me and my status at my high-school... People who have never talked to me before suddenly act as if they've known me since forever, it is a weird but cool feeling. I dunno, maybe its only a swing for now where later its going to suck again but I'm gunna milk it for all its worth.

Janaya was wondering if I was going to Stacies Halloween party, sounds freakin' awesome but I will have to ask Stacey if its Okay If I go... I mean me Laura and Janaya will be three that know each other but I would feel kinda stupid if I just showed up at Stacey's house in a costume (I wanna go in this cow balloon costume my mom had, its an inflatable one that expands like a balloon its really funny). That will be something I need to do...

Swimming almost over, only one week (all give a WOOT WOOT)

I find myself procrastinating over homework more, I wasn't as bad as this ever, I mean I get all done just not days ahead only at the last minute when I am trying to cram an assignment and an essay all in one period in school LOL.

Video project a hit can't wait to watch others

bye for now
The Drew

current mood:

cheerful

Friday, October 22nd, 2004

9:26 pm - In Pain in need of,,, coke...

First of all let me say... PAIN!!! Oh my stomach is cramping... it HURTS!!!!!

k needed to get that out of my system

Anywho, very depremido that the carnival was cancelled, deagol cries a tear, as wanted to go REALLy badly... no really REALLY!!!! Homecoming is this week, and I could care less, Maybe the game was cool. But the dance and the dud of a carnival... GHS is a bust this year. Guess I just gotta keep swimmin *I like to swim, up and down, back and forth, and all around* I love taht, hehe look I said taht... My god I am so brain dead right now, my body is melting into the back of the wooden chair and I could care less...

go Me! no really go... get off you but... go... curse this back of mine... damn my lack for energy right now...

let me know if we are going to the state fair I sooo want to go to that.

the drousily depressed (no really depressing my back into this friggen hard chair) Deagol

current mood:

blah

Saturday, October 16th, 2004

5:39 pm - The day of the Calzone

Today was very cool, though I must say in the morning I hit an all time low, meaning it sucked.

This morning my mom wakes me early and tells me to get ready for PSAT, now if there is anything worse than a test that is three freakin' hours long, no breaks, and is soo boring that will make you cry, is the fact that you go back to school and realize what you have to deal with coming monday when life in slavery (a.k.a. school) sucks. Bad things should stay in school, I no need them now, stay in school bad things.

However afterword we came home (I am just a little tired) and my mom says that we and Nicole and Mrs. Brown are going to lunch (note the happy turning point of my day). It was fun to go to florindinos (I think that is the name) but the waitress was force-feeding us (rushing us really quickly) and practically writing our bill for us, she was really impatient even though we were like the only group there during lunch, crazy people. We went looking at some houses in the new community Agritopia, funny name Nicole and I were laughing (we should go to change it in the dead of night). Now these houses that were there were FREAKIN' AWESOME I thought they were way cool, (save for "convert to church house"). It was fun just to look, the neighborhood was all small and close'nit and awesome. On the way home we saw a little roadrunner that was funny too, because its tail would wave up and down on impulse. Nicole kept making funny noises with it that made me laugh so hard I wanted to cry, we need to get a road runner of our own.

Cheers to this wonderfull overcast day,
of which we should hope to see more of.

current mood:

rejuvenated

Thursday, October 14th, 2004

2:13 pm - Disney...

Well just got back from a three day disney trip, had a lot of fun, even though we go like every month this time it was just special...

However California Adventure was fun but disney land was all under construction. Even the castle (the one that you look at when you walk in) was under construction... and so were a lot of the major roller coasters.

Was depressed on wednesday (the last day) because all day long I was trying to find Belle or Aurora to take a picture with (and put it in my wallet and show everyone my girlfriend lol... I would've been like "Yeah... thats my gf, I believe you know her") Could not find them only crappy snow white lol.

We saw a lot of shows and they were cool, I got a picture with pooh just to be cool... cus' i am.

had fun but glad to be home... hanging out, its good, now to procrastinate my homework in school lol

current mood:

energetic

Wednesday, October 6th, 2004

5:40 pm

Woot today's my 16th Birthday Woot Woot! I thought it was shawsome cool, my mom (for the first time ever) said I did not have to go to school today, so, we went to the mall and chilled there and had fun buying sweaters and stuff (my clothes have like holes in them, or bleach stains lol) and had a lot of fun. We met up with my dad at PF Changs and ate a shawsome lunch.

It turns out I am not qualified to get my liscence until november 18th (since it has not yet been 5 months since I have had my permit) and I am bummed. Yet my mom still wanted me to get a job... TODAY! I was like what!? and ride my bike 4 miles to work everyday... need I say more.

Oh well will wait.

Was funny in swimming though. Whenever someone has a B-day they are put in the middle of the pool and everyone splashes them till they can't breath while singing that gruesome song happy b-day. Bryn ratted me out... no one else knew... so the pool is like freakin freezing and coach goes "and we have a birthday today" I was like "shit shit shit... what, who, BRYN!!!! where's my dagger, I coulda sworn I left it in my speedo" and no one answers until I slowly raise my hand and get drownded... ded... it was fun I had a blast

here is to an almost ent of a totally shawsome day.

Thursday, September 30th, 2004

10:03 pm - A Wonderful Notion...

The crazy spiral that were these past to weeks is ending and all will go grood soon. The show only runs three more days so I will soon be free, but that also means saying goodbye to those in mesa. they tend to forget me. sad

no need to talk of school some words are better expressed with actions
*crazy italian gesture insult thing... the one that mrs brown showed us... yes*

I just want time with friends... true friends, so alone precious. Will have to get something together. I find myself wanting a gf at times, for company, but I dont want to get into those games, no one is the right one at my school... sad.

BuT IM STiLL a SeArCHInG SiZZlING BaChEALoR LaDiES!!!!!!!!!
so dont be discouraged

es all

meep

Friday, September 24th, 2004

9:38 pm - The play has started

The play has started and the spiral of my life into hell has almost ended. I go from school everyday and don't get home until around eleven, go to bed and get back up in the morning to do the same thing. Karen stopped yelling at me and my missed sound cues and our second show tonight went well. Tommorow we have two Oh joy... oh rapture...

Good to reminisce with friends in Mesa, they wanted to go to Denny's tonight and I really needed a break but I had a crappy carpool with another family and no one going to Denny's could have driven me all the way home in Gilbert... damn my ability not to drive, inflicts much on my personal life... damn...

Must live... must go on... stupid people in my school need to die... dead...

so yah hope to see you all soon my B-day is coming up and am excited, going to probably have a lot of people so it will be more like a thing were we go out to one big dinner, I like that...

das all
the drew

let me know if anyone is doing anything